I just got a phone call from my step-daughter’s orchestra teacher. 2 years ago, I would have taken it in stride. It would have been the norm, because the school always contacted me first. No big deal.
Today is a totally different story though. I haven’t spoken to my step-daughter since last August. Her father and I exchange only brief words when he is picking up or dropping off the baby. I shouldn’t not be listed as a contact for my step-daughter.
Forget the fact that I will have been gone for 2 years in September. If it had happened last school year, I could have understood it, because I left after school had started. But this year? I don’t see how it’s even remotely possible that he hasn’t removed me as a contact person at her school.
I’ve just stopped shaking from this. I hate that after almost 2 years these things pop up and still affect me this way. I just want to shut down completely and crawl in to bed right now. But I can’t do that. I can sit here in a daze for a bit, but I can’t just turn it all off.
I guess, ultimately, it just makes me angry that I’ve worked so hard to remove him from everything, and he’s done none of that. He has been so adamant that I have no contact with “his” daughter, that he will press charges if I do, but yet I’m still listed as her mother at the school. This just makes no sense to me. I suppose I’m asking for too much though, when I ask for logical actions from an illogical person.
Well, at least this will make my therapy session worth the $45 tomorrow.